Hello all again for the first in a while. I am currently under the influence of Vicodin because I got my tonsils and adenoids removed recently so I get to do legal drugs. Happy day. The thing about it forces a deep part of me out that reminds me of a bunch of new topics I have gone over in this absence of mine for two months.
The Question is: How do humans conceive value in something?
Now in how I've always seen it and came to the conclusion to, we need an opposing force that's just as great. There's no way that humans would be able to conceive was "good" is without "evil." If evil were not a thing, what would we be able to compare to make a "good" and "evil." It's also the reason that a lot of people put great value into happiness. They fear sadness. Which is what I find ironic about the kind of people that use all their energy in being happy. They fear sadness so much that they're even paranoid about it which all that paranoia and fear they create just fills their living space in negative vibes covered in a happy looking coat. You cannot have one thing, without the other. I don't want to be a killjoy, but for those believing that they can create a 100% happy place, negativity will find its way in somehow and in any level, small, or large.
Now, for a deeper sense on emotion value. It's one thing to value happiness over sadness, but it's another to value having emotions over not having emotions. This is one thing I have to deal with. I value sadness and all emotions except anger. Why? Because feeling nothing, absolutely nothing its awful. You can't connect with people. It mocks me on how I know what each emotion is and I can't feel them. I can only know them. It makes me feel like I'm less than human because emotions are the one thing that make humans, humans. And not Tranquils or Pawns. It's something that's impossible to explain. being half-tranquil as I think of it. The experience of not caring or being disturbed by anything. To not be excited for the cool new thing. But the worst part about it for me is...
The lack of the ability to feel love.
It pains me that I can feel that nice burning sensation in my chest whenever I kiss, or think of someone I love a lot. I remember the feeling which is why I say it mocks me. I remember these feelings, so I can only know what I'm 'feeling' but not experience what I'm feeling. I believe there is a way to get my emotions back.
But how?
It's just as the Yin Yang implies. There is good and bad. There is good within the bad and there is bad within the good. There will always be evil, but that's there so you can truly be happy. To understand evil, not fear it. So you can truly be happy. If you worry about sadness and negativity. It's like you're welcoming it.
This is also why I am trying to understand what true sadness and evil is. I have already felt happiness. (half tranquil as said, so I can still experience some emotions.) So I can truly be happy. I wish to cry out these involuntarily bottled up tears and learn when to cry at appropriate times. So I can learn what truly be in a good mood means.
I think I may have strayed slightly from the topic and got personal with it, but whatever. I explained the whole value thing with emotions. This is just something that I have came across too with myself and in general. Have a good rest of your day. -Nate
Monday, August 19, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
"Read Me"
Hello all. I'm on the computer skyping with my dear Paige as I have have thought of a topic to blog about that has been on my mind for a little bit now. I am also enjoy a mt dew code red. Suck it for those who don't have one.
The Question is: What is Positive and Negative energy and How does it work?
Well Positive and Negative are two sources of energy usually based on emotion. Negative energy is emitted from people when they feel depressed or angry. Positive energy is emitted when someone feels happy and especially when they are excited. When someone meditates they let off negative energy as they are literally clearing themselves of energy. People around the person meditating will feel it if they can sense it. I was with my buddy Kalvin and Tim one day and Kalvin was meditating letting off this Negative energy and I could really feel it. I then released it into the sky where it could affect no one. Dream Catchers are also wonderful things. They don't necessarily catch bad dreams but they do capture negative energy so only positive energy can flow through the room. Thats why you have good dreams because all the negative energy you give off as you relax and sleep is then caught by the dream catcher. I bought a locally and hand made one. It's great, I suggest non-factory made ones because then they have meaning. It hangs from my ceiling above me as I stare into space wondering about things.
How do these energies work? they work like emotions but can move around through people as mentioned. People can actually use and direct these energies. Like I can send positive and negative energy into people in large amounts as I please. Others can do the same. For example I would use negative energy to intimidate people so they leave me alone and use positive energy to make someone feel better or to bring them over to me. I have a theory that These energies can be used for real life magic. Like fireballs and electricity mainly. My theory is that One could use negative energy and focus it on the oxygen around their hands making them vibrate, then eventually combusting making fire. To make electricity you would make the atoms collide instead of vibrate. Thats a thought to be thinking thoroughly.
These energies are commonly called "Vibes." Like when someone asks if another person is ok and they say their fine, but the person who asked still has a feeling that they're actually not. A more common example is when someone says "I gotta bad feeling about this." They feel negative energy coming from the current situation.
These energies can come from all things especially music. Music gives of positive AND negative energy. for example with me listening to practically every genre, I have not seen a genre of music produce more positive energy than Death Metal. Ironic, isn't it? But that is why people don't dance to metal. It produces so much that they're have to give off more than just dancing (the energies are always what makes you what to dance or headbang), but literally throw your body around. Sad songs do give off negative energy so beware, not saying their bad but if you listen to them when in a good mood it can literally flip it during the songs duration. (Things like hobbies that make you feel good also give off or make you emit positive energy and such.)
When you start to sense these energies coming from people and how much there is in the world you start to see it in a different way (or at least for me.) You want to see how everyone's doing. So you dive into peoples vibes and start to learn more about people. But thats not really a bad thing though depending how you look at it. (you cannot read minds with these energies.) Also, ways to transfer energy between to people without thinking about it like I do, is to give someone a hug or kiss. Hugs and Kisses transfer energy from two people making both feel better, or making one person who is feeling bad feel better. (yes hugs are truly lifesavers when one needs to be overseen psychologically.) Kisses are a romantic action and transfer more positive energy than hugs. Its basically a hug mk III or however the levelling is. But go ahead give people hugs just because. It'll make people smile (not all people.) and its another reason to be happy in your life.
I felt kinda bland writing this post but I hope it was informing. Not all people will understand the hug thing but it doesn't matter as long as they feel good afterwards. We literally could make this place a happier place with one step of just showing friendly or romantic affection for people. So let people go on about what they like and don't shoot them down if they are happy.
Don't be that guy.
Have a goodnight all -Nate.
The Question is: What is Positive and Negative energy and How does it work?
Well Positive and Negative are two sources of energy usually based on emotion. Negative energy is emitted from people when they feel depressed or angry. Positive energy is emitted when someone feels happy and especially when they are excited. When someone meditates they let off negative energy as they are literally clearing themselves of energy. People around the person meditating will feel it if they can sense it. I was with my buddy Kalvin and Tim one day and Kalvin was meditating letting off this Negative energy and I could really feel it. I then released it into the sky where it could affect no one. Dream Catchers are also wonderful things. They don't necessarily catch bad dreams but they do capture negative energy so only positive energy can flow through the room. Thats why you have good dreams because all the negative energy you give off as you relax and sleep is then caught by the dream catcher. I bought a locally and hand made one. It's great, I suggest non-factory made ones because then they have meaning. It hangs from my ceiling above me as I stare into space wondering about things.
How do these energies work? they work like emotions but can move around through people as mentioned. People can actually use and direct these energies. Like I can send positive and negative energy into people in large amounts as I please. Others can do the same. For example I would use negative energy to intimidate people so they leave me alone and use positive energy to make someone feel better or to bring them over to me. I have a theory that These energies can be used for real life magic. Like fireballs and electricity mainly. My theory is that One could use negative energy and focus it on the oxygen around their hands making them vibrate, then eventually combusting making fire. To make electricity you would make the atoms collide instead of vibrate. Thats a thought to be thinking thoroughly.
These energies are commonly called "Vibes." Like when someone asks if another person is ok and they say their fine, but the person who asked still has a feeling that they're actually not. A more common example is when someone says "I gotta bad feeling about this." They feel negative energy coming from the current situation.
These energies can come from all things especially music. Music gives of positive AND negative energy. for example with me listening to practically every genre, I have not seen a genre of music produce more positive energy than Death Metal. Ironic, isn't it? But that is why people don't dance to metal. It produces so much that they're have to give off more than just dancing (the energies are always what makes you what to dance or headbang), but literally throw your body around. Sad songs do give off negative energy so beware, not saying their bad but if you listen to them when in a good mood it can literally flip it during the songs duration. (Things like hobbies that make you feel good also give off or make you emit positive energy and such.)
When you start to sense these energies coming from people and how much there is in the world you start to see it in a different way (or at least for me.) You want to see how everyone's doing. So you dive into peoples vibes and start to learn more about people. But thats not really a bad thing though depending how you look at it. (you cannot read minds with these energies.) Also, ways to transfer energy between to people without thinking about it like I do, is to give someone a hug or kiss. Hugs and Kisses transfer energy from two people making both feel better, or making one person who is feeling bad feel better. (yes hugs are truly lifesavers when one needs to be overseen psychologically.) Kisses are a romantic action and transfer more positive energy than hugs. Its basically a hug mk III or however the levelling is. But go ahead give people hugs just because. It'll make people smile (not all people.) and its another reason to be happy in your life.
I felt kinda bland writing this post but I hope it was informing. Not all people will understand the hug thing but it doesn't matter as long as they feel good afterwards. We literally could make this place a happier place with one step of just showing friendly or romantic affection for people. So let people go on about what they like and don't shoot them down if they are happy.
Don't be that guy.
Have a goodnight all -Nate.
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Breaking the Rules of life
Hello all. I write this at my friend Josh's house while he lays on the floor after our long adventure from the putterz that we played some mini golf at with our awesome friend, Kallie. He's been there for 20 minutes or so lol. I am also listening to some Nirvana. Now into discussion.
The Question is: What if Humans had mating seasons?
So what if humans did have mating seasons? Most at their first thought would just think that, that within itself would be the only difference. Well if you think about it, the social structure would be entirely different and there probably be no such thing as relationships or "hooking up." I figured with woman especially teenagers that they would worry about getting a mate for that year instead of what dress to wear to prom. They would have to get a mate of popular preference because if they don't that year, that'll send a message to all the males that she is an undesirable. Which would be devastating.
For males it would be different as well. Physical appearance would matter a lot more than personality. They would be very primal. We would still have intelligent thought and everyday human abilities, it's just that all the males would be working out to try to impress the females. So yeah, no fat people. Males would also be a lot more aggressive and a lot less reasonably with conflicts. Showing teeth would also been shown as an act of aggression due to us being so similar to apes and monkeys. With having a child learn manners I could see it as the parent reminding the child to smile with his/her mouth closed. laughing I'm sure would be an exception because you can obvious tell the difference due to the sound and how the teeth aren't connected.
This was just an interesting thought I had one day. On the Marrow, good audience.
The Question is: What if Humans had mating seasons?
So what if humans did have mating seasons? Most at their first thought would just think that, that within itself would be the only difference. Well if you think about it, the social structure would be entirely different and there probably be no such thing as relationships or "hooking up." I figured with woman especially teenagers that they would worry about getting a mate for that year instead of what dress to wear to prom. They would have to get a mate of popular preference because if they don't that year, that'll send a message to all the males that she is an undesirable. Which would be devastating.
For males it would be different as well. Physical appearance would matter a lot more than personality. They would be very primal. We would still have intelligent thought and everyday human abilities, it's just that all the males would be working out to try to impress the females. So yeah, no fat people. Males would also be a lot more aggressive and a lot less reasonably with conflicts. Showing teeth would also been shown as an act of aggression due to us being so similar to apes and monkeys. With having a child learn manners I could see it as the parent reminding the child to smile with his/her mouth closed. laughing I'm sure would be an exception because you can obvious tell the difference due to the sound and how the teeth aren't connected.
This was just an interesting thought I had one day. On the Marrow, good audience.
Friday, April 19, 2013
Baal
Hello again everyone of the internet. I write this on easter morning at 1:24 am. I should be getting sleep but i can't get any of it. So I write to you on a touchy subject yet again.
The Question is: How much have I been affected by Baal?
I have learned much since my last posts that I do not fear Baal nearly as much as I did then. The idea of Abaddon no longer frightens me and I even imagine myself interacting and being in the same place with Abaddon but don't fear him. Well, Imagination is one thing but actually being there with the destroyer himself would be a very different thing.
I've stared Baal right in the face spiritually I'm pretty sure and witnessed his ugly face as he tries to impress me with his "power." Always handing me an eye of lust, of temptation, of evil. Trying to constantly force me into sin. To the average christian, I'm pretty sure that I have an interesting and very different relationship with Hell. Am I supposed to become familiar with the dark realm? If so, for what purpose? All this time around dark substances and influence. In my life I have been treading the alternative path in a positive way. The Spider and The Fly was my favorite book as a child. Why? My guess is because it was different, so much different that it caught my interest quickly. I understood the death of the fly due to the interaction with the spider. I even remember asking my dad about why the fly was talking to the spider if spiders ate flies. The trickery moral came in later.
So after this time with some sort of ominous connection with Oblivion, I have traveled a long trek. So much influence everywhere of sin. The Repetition of Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal.
Abaddon.
I will not let you prevail.
I Love My God.
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The Question is: How much have I been affected by Baal?
I have learned much since my last posts that I do not fear Baal nearly as much as I did then. The idea of Abaddon no longer frightens me and I even imagine myself interacting and being in the same place with Abaddon but don't fear him. Well, Imagination is one thing but actually being there with the destroyer himself would be a very different thing.
I've stared Baal right in the face spiritually I'm pretty sure and witnessed his ugly face as he tries to impress me with his "power." Always handing me an eye of lust, of temptation, of evil. Trying to constantly force me into sin. To the average christian, I'm pretty sure that I have an interesting and very different relationship with Hell. Am I supposed to become familiar with the dark realm? If so, for what purpose? All this time around dark substances and influence. In my life I have been treading the alternative path in a positive way. The Spider and The Fly was my favorite book as a child. Why? My guess is because it was different, so much different that it caught my interest quickly. I understood the death of the fly due to the interaction with the spider. I even remember asking my dad about why the fly was talking to the spider if spiders ate flies. The trickery moral came in later.
So after this time with some sort of ominous connection with Oblivion, I have traveled a long trek. So much influence everywhere of sin. The Repetition of Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal. Baal.
Abaddon.
I will not let you prevail.
I Love My God.
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Sunday, March 3, 2013
Long time no see
Sorry to all who read this, I totally forgot about my blog and I think its due time to write another one. I am at my grandfathers with a nearly dead iPhone and am waiting for munchies. Here we go into the discussion!
The Question is: Are people really getting more and more uncreative, or are people just saying so to get the sympathy they lust? and if so, why is sympathy such a desire?
Well lets see if you could catch my obvious bias and answer from my perspective in the question. Yes I think that people nowadays are just saying they suck at everything just for that babying they get for saying so. You might called me "Stone hearted" or "cold" for not showing sympathy for anyone that is depressed and are complaining about things over and over again and when people are admirably creative with a drawing or music or something and they just throw it out the window for sympathy. Nope, not me. If you want to throw away you gift then that's your choice.
Anyway, you see this everywhere around teenagers (or at least in my area of the world) that they just put themselves down. People are very creative as everyone should know and they always do show their talent somehow. Its a very predictable pattern so why do people want sympathy is the next question.
Why is sympathy such a required thing to human beings? Why did we become such social and extroverted organisms and not introverted and alone? It may have been common courtesy that lead over so many years that just brought together humans as a cooperative community or it may have been there's something in a brain or something that just tells us to be nice and help each other out most of the time. They're both entirely possible.
I dont really have much else to say. Just let me get at this blogging stuff again and I should add on to it then. Another half assed blog. Do comment your thoughts and what you think of this to help me get back on track. Love your faces <3
The Question is: Are people really getting more and more uncreative, or are people just saying so to get the sympathy they lust? and if so, why is sympathy such a desire?
Well lets see if you could catch my obvious bias and answer from my perspective in the question. Yes I think that people nowadays are just saying they suck at everything just for that babying they get for saying so. You might called me "Stone hearted" or "cold" for not showing sympathy for anyone that is depressed and are complaining about things over and over again and when people are admirably creative with a drawing or music or something and they just throw it out the window for sympathy. Nope, not me. If you want to throw away you gift then that's your choice.
Anyway, you see this everywhere around teenagers (or at least in my area of the world) that they just put themselves down. People are very creative as everyone should know and they always do show their talent somehow. Its a very predictable pattern so why do people want sympathy is the next question.
Why is sympathy such a required thing to human beings? Why did we become such social and extroverted organisms and not introverted and alone? It may have been common courtesy that lead over so many years that just brought together humans as a cooperative community or it may have been there's something in a brain or something that just tells us to be nice and help each other out most of the time. They're both entirely possible.
I dont really have much else to say. Just let me get at this blogging stuff again and I should add on to it then. Another half assed blog. Do comment your thoughts and what you think of this to help me get back on track. Love your faces <3
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