Nervousness

Hello and This is my second blog and this one is about how im nervous on somethings and would like your opinions.

One thing that I am nervous about is being seen by My principal and in some cases my former world studies teacher, Mr. Wynn. My principal Mr. Okma I already know hates me for who I am, and I am being kicked out of his school, Wihi. So that means I have to meet with him again and I can not emotionally speak with him. Not because I am ashamed of my grades, but I feel so pushed at and attacked by him and I don't get defensive, but confused and at a lost of words. I forget the whole ability and part of the conversation just focusing on his anger. Then I just fall into tears and that I take shame of facing my Principal and crying. I think it's a safe bet that he thinks that I cry in front of him about my grades. I don't think he cares though, he gets done of whatever is his and he leaves his students futures to them, which I view as a good thing partially because I make my life and he shouldn't be concerned about it, but he will still call you down and yell at you and get frustrated for you not being able to catch up. So this is one thing that I am always nervous about, walking through the schools fearing the sight of my principal.

Another thing that I am nervous about is that some of my family members are also raging for the fact that I can't keep up with the IB's standards. My dad is been recently more tolerable, but my step mom I have noticed that she has taken a very agressive living style when communicating with me, for the same reasons as stated above. My dad and step mom do the hardest work just to say so and like to think that doing all that will make them idols. I think other wise becaues it's time that they've learned that nobody cares that you've actually done more work for no reason. Most people will probably just be like "You did more work? HAHA, way to waste your time and effort when you could've gotten the same thing with less work." But seeing that they are my parents I have no authority or rights of any kind of speach. I don't feel as if I get enough rights to actually state my case, this limits me and makes me just want to run away from my friends house and live there to the people that actually know what I'm talking about.

So this is what I have to say, take a gander at your thoughts and tell me what you think. -Nate