Suicidal dreams, thoughts, wants, and haunts

This is my third blog and I'm here to talk about suicidal issues.

The Question is: Why are some of my friends having the desire to commit suicide and some of my friends, friends wanting to commit suicide?

I really have no idea why but I have been surrounded by depression for several years now. I did have it for 2 years or something but I've become a happy person. Or was anyway. Depression has come to strike me in the back again. Don't worry I still have all my morals about not committing suicide and not cutting and everything. But its origin is not just what I went on in my second blog, "Nervousness," but from the constant thoughts about this depression stuff. I know its needed  as an emotion for certain situations and responses that are appropriate for an unfortunate event. Too much of it of coarse is bad and even happiness is the same way as well. Too much of anything is bad. So I find myself a good medium. I know there can be ridiculous counslers but there are also some amazing counslers as well. Like I've had mine for two years and we get along so well and he's just awesome. So I think that the people who really need the help should get it (Like my friend Josh for example) he's been great and I think that to all people with depression should look at me and josh as an example. I was not put on meds though I made a goal that I could find happiness as a purity and not masked by meds. A real true expression of happiness, which I did achieve. Josh's was so bad that he has to be put on the meds or else he'll try to commit suicide immediately... which is definitely a horrifying thought and image :'C Everything should work out in the end.

And I was looking at a conversation between josh and amy (yes I did josh deal with it) and I worry for amy. That may sound creepy to you, but I view everyone as a friend of mine and I look out for friends. I even treat god informally. Many religious people would think thats insane but why? You don't treat you father very formally (Unless you were raised like that of coarse.) You can have a informal conversation with God if you wanted to. But Josh, when you read this, keep her alive. I'd be doing her and us a favor. She seems like a kool person as well that I would like to talk to at some point in this life...

  Another this is to know, not make yourself believe, but KNOW that you are never alone. Unless of coarse you make yourself that way. I have seen it too many times that people isolate themselves then say everyones avoiding them. So accept the company because not everyone is a bad person. Be optimistic! And don't be afraid to show yourself. I wear black a lot (as stated in my second blog) and take no shame in who I am. I am self and who ever were to challenge me I would say "I am Self!."

With these kind of tips of advice to get people started I believe we can save lives and start a global life saving revolution to over through the bullshit leaders we have today and start a new happier culture were everything is fair and the world may be run by our more perfect ideas. God bless us all and help us along the way. Fuck close minded people they will learn. Purge your depression, but not forcefully, getting rid of things always takes your time. But stand strong. Everyone and Anyone is here for you.

Take care of yourselves -Nate